Thursday, December 20, 2007

The Evidence

Well, we've listened to all of our audio, and watched the video footage of our investigation of this house with known paranormal activity. I'm an even bigger dork now, but Richy is an even bigger one. Allow me to explain.

In every single one of our videos, we all were certain of the activity centering around the master bedroom. Now, we each had our own investigations with just the co-founder and his camera. Then after our investigations we were to leave and make no discussion whatsoever about our experiences until we viewed all of the evidence. In EVERY video we all stopped at the end of the hallway and felt drawn to the bedroom or repelled by it. All of the women felt repelled. All of the men were drawn in. It was really cool to watch.

My audio seems to have one good EVP and many whispers. I was even told "don't come around here" shortly before I told the co-founder that I felt that I shouldn't be in that bedroom. But it wasn't scary or evil feeling at all. It was that parental "go, on get outta here!" sort of feeling. Everyone, was more than happy to leave the room in their footage, though. In the bedroom we ALL had similar sensations in exactly the same place in the room. I found that really interesting.

Richy's audio was peppered with EVPs. The entity, or whatever you want to call it, seemed to like Richy. When he went into the master bath, he has an EVP saying what sounds like someone whispering, "Take a bath." It's really pretty good for an EVP, but still it sounds kind of weird. Now, Richy told the entity that he had a beautiful home and he thanked him for allowing him into it. On the audio we caught nothing in that part. But on the video, someone definitely says something back to him. It's not even a whisper. It's a blurry sounding voice. Since it's not our footage, Richy hasn't been able to clean it up and listen closely. He wasn't sure if it said "thank you" to him or "welcome" or something to that effect. It was really amazing though because everyone in the room watching the video heard it. I think we can all agree that he had the most interesting experience of the group.

So, the other night he was lying in bed trying, unsuccessfully, to sleep and he got that paranormal feeling he felt in that house. So he got his recorder and started asking some questions. I'll be damned if he didn't get a clear "hello" by what sounds like an old lady. No shit. She said something else too, but we can't seem to make it out. So he left the recorder going for a few hours and slept. Well now he knows what his big ass sounds like snoring. But anyway, he picked up this odd rhythm. It sounded like someone knocked once, made this 70s beat with their mouth and knocked again. It was cool!

The next day he recorded in the hallway of our house since he swears he didn't turn the hall light on and it was on. He picked up what sounds a lot like someone saying "Hey there, leave a message." Or, "Hey there we have a message." Something like that. It's not clear. Richy feels that whatever we have here, if it's anything at all, is residual. I agree. I'm even willing to investigate the idea that it may be picking up people's phone lines or something. It doesn't even make sense to me to say that, but the "hello" and "leave a message" makes me wonder.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

What the hell's wrong with you?

Richy has informed his family of our plans to split completely next summer, and that we plan to always be best friends because we work best that way and have children who grew up together. So why, today, did his sister send a card addressed and solely for Richy? It said for him to buy something nice, and there was nothing in it. This, after she sends his daughters' presents to his ex-wife and directs their grandfather to do the same. Never mind that they have spent every Christmas with their dad. She is actually better friends with Richy's ex-wife than she is with Richy...and that woman borrowed $300 from her once and never paid her back. And believe me, she talks shit about her behind her back too. Yet this is someone you call a friend to her face. Very nice.

Oh, and while we're never minding things - let's never mind that she completely neglected to send a card to me or my sons. Even Richy's dad sent them a box with presents for them in it. And he sent me a gift card with Richy's in a FAMILY ADDRESSED card.

I am super angry, but it's only to mask the fact that I'm hurt that she is such a nasty, nasty bitch. Richy just threw the card into the trash can after he opened it. He says he will wait a few days to see if another card follows, but I don't care if one does. I think it was a really stupid thing for her to do that, if it is true she's going to send a separate card for me and the boys.

She's always been this way, but never so bold and nasty. She usually does the passive aggression thing. This is just a step below that. I don't hold grudges, but I do cut people off if they are keeping up with shitty behavior toward me. Why pretend? At least I have the balls to be honest about how I feel about people.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

My First Investigation

We had our first paranormal investigation last weekend. It was a lot fun! The house had known activity. Our group's co- founder has spent the night there a number of times, and has a whole slew of EVPs. He didn't give us any information other than how he was acquainted with the home's owner (who is seemingly unaware of her house's activity). She is super old and the group's co-founder's family watches her house from time to time, which is how we were able to get in and investigate.

I started out by getting a base feeling of the house before everyone went in, went around to all of the rooms after we went dark. I really didn't feel anything, to be honest, until I got to the master bedroom. I had a sense that I had overstepped my boundaries. It was a parental feeling of "you shouldn't be in here." So I left. And I went back in a few minutes later. The feeling wasn't as strong. But other than that, really - nothing to write home about. I'm even willing to write that off as my own personal feelings about being in other people's bedrooms.

We were allowed in only one at a time, plus the founder who was video recording each of our investigations. I just used a digital audio recorder for mine. I wasn't about to buy fancy-pants equipment just yet. Richy was though. It was his recorder. All throughout the house I still felt nothing. I felt calm and normal. We went into the master bedroom and I was talking to the co-founder and all of a sudden I got major pins and needles on my legs. Not hair-on-end, not static. So I let him know that. And I let him know when it stopped. It only stayed around my legs. Then I left. That was it. I really had fun, though.

Richy had quite an experience. See, he's never experienced paranormal feelings. He's had like some really minor experiences which were unexplainable, but nothing that really caught his attention. So he was overwhelmed by the experience and loved it. Tomorrow we reveal our evidence, which I'm sure I'll post about too.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Is there anybody going to listen to my story?

If you're a wannabe hippie - which I just so happen to be, then you should have already seen Across the Universe. It's not in the theaters anymore, so if you didn't see it, you suck. It's a musical. I knew going in that I would have to make myself listen to people in song talk as though they weren't going over a melody while the people in the background do choreographed dance moves and pretend they're walking like normal. So I prepared myself and by about the 3rd or 4th song I was actually into it. I really liked it a lot. It's an anti-war movie. Of course. What, besides recycling and granola, are hippies known for? And they redid all of these Beatles songs so they didn't sound so uppity and pleasant. It was great.

So anyway, it was a beautifully done movie. Everything was gorgeous and artistic and bright and other exciting adjectives. I guess what I'm saying is, if you don't have hi-def TV or some way of seeing this movie in a theater quality fashion, don't waste your time. You've missed it.

Sunday, December 2, 2007


I've been - well, I hesitate to call it dieting, but I guess that's the only way to describe it to other people. To me, I've changed my eating habits. 'Cause I think the way I'm eating lately is normal, and what I was doing before was some perversion of eating. I know I had to be consuming more than 2,000 calories a day. Well, now I'm down to 1,350. It feels just right. I don't feel starved, but I am forced to decide if what I'm about to eat is really worth it. Does it provide nutrients? Does it taste good? It's been really cool.

I can't believe how much I used to eat in just one day. OMG I was looking at the Dunkin Donuts website to get some idea of what I can and can't have, and I just casually checked how many calories were in a muffin since that's what I used to get most often. There wasn't a single muffin there under 500 calories. Can you imagine? I can get a whole meal out of 500 calories now, but I was eating these things as snacks! It was only a matter of time before I was going to be 200LB. No doubt.

I have been walking my sons to school every morning now since the middle of October, I believe. That's 2 miles a day. It wasn't until like 2 weeks ago, after not losing any weight, that I adjusted my caloric intake. I immediately saw a difference once I did that. I've lost 7LB in about 4-5 weeks now. I wish it was coming off faster, but I'm just glad it's coming off at all. I'm not that big to begin with so, of course, it's going to take some time. I know I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. It's kinda like when people "find Jesus" - they want to tell everyone. Well, I've found....a healthier lifestyle.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Ghost Hunter

So, I started watching Ghost Hunters at some point this year. Yeah, there isn't anyway for me to pretend I'm NOT a dork now. I have an original collection of The Twilight Zone on DVD, for God's sake. But, that's neither here nor there. Ahem, so I decided that I'm really interested in what they do on the show. So I went to their website and checked out their forum. I found a local guy who wanted to start his own group here. Well by the time I found his post some months had passed. He'd already started the group. I told Richy about it 'cause he's interested too. And we set out to meet up with the founder and co-founder in downtown Lake Worth. This was sort of an "interview", just a way for all of us to feel each other out...ew, that sounds creepy. And it went really well. We're excited about it! This is the first hobby Richy and I have ever really had in the time we've known each other. The sad thing is I finally found stuff to do for fun with him AFTER we split up.

Our first investigation is coming up on December 8th. And we have a meeting on the 2nd to meet the group and discuss the way we'll investigate this house we're going to. It should be very interesting. I'm not ready to commit to buying equipment more extravagant than a red LED flashlight (and even that I'm thinking about just slapping some red cellophane over a regular flashlight) just yet. But I think I'll wait to see how I like all of this before I get into buying accessories and stuff. Richy seems to think he'll love it straight off. I just keep thinking about when I leave in the summer I won't be able to do the investigations and stuff anymore. He will still be here so that's why he can make plans for the future for it, I guess.

The founder and co-founder are really cool people. They'd JUST done their first radio show on an AM station so they were amped when we met them. They're even more pumped up now 'cause they've been invited back. They say a lot of the other members really want to travel and do other places in FL. So they are off to a great start, I think. I'm looking forward to hanging out with them and seeing what they're about.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Watch Your Damned Kids!

As a parent I can empathize with having small children and needing to get things done during the day, wanting to do something fun once in a while, etc. I really understand that. I don't make a fuss when someone's baby is crying or their tired kid starts acting up. I get annoyed really quickly when a parent is clearly a selfish asshole and is a) dragging their baby/toddler around when he's crying from fatigue and/or, b) not really paying attention to their child at all.

We were at the Boynton Beach Mall today having lunch in the food court after our first wave of Christmas shopping. Some bitchy, lazy mom dining in Sbarro's let her little toddler boy run absolutely wild in the food court while she sat her sorry ass in Sbarro's eating a relaxing meal for two. He was no where near her. In fact, there were times when I know he was totally out of her line of sight. Then he started screaming shrilly and intermittently. One of the other patrons of Sbarro's, an older woman, was like, "Hey kid, shush!" in an even tone, just loud enough for me to barely hear about 30 feet away. His mother FINALLY decides that she's coherent then and tells the woman not to talk to her son. She never collected him, sat him down, talked to him - nothing. She didn't do shit except continue to stuff her face.

I was totally floored. The kid's GRANDMA had to come chase him down when he got all the way over to where I was sitting and was weaving in and out of tables. No one thought it was cute or funny. Grandma couldn't run after him and he was just out of control. But Dear Ol' Mom got up from the table and proceeded to walk away like he wasn't her problem. What a bitch. I can't believe she's going to have another child soon. Yay, another baby for you to ignore! Hurray! What a lucky couple of kids!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Hey there Delilah, let's see you two in about 7 years

It's so funny how the years in a relationship can just drain the life out of you. But once upon a time you thought this person was "the one". You were talking about love like you knew something about it.

After seven years we're calling it quits. Seven years seems SO long, and I'm pretty sure it IS long. I feel like it was just yesterday that we met, yet I can't remember how it felt when I was head-over-heels for him. I can't even imagine why we've held on so long. It's all made me so jaded about relationships in general. And I doubt I'll ever want to be married. I feel like I've given so much of myself that there's nothing left.

I don't see myself ever wanting to date even. I feel like every potential person to date would suck. I've changed so much, and I know what I don't want, and what I'm willing and not willing to put up with. And, I've gotta tell ya, the things I'm not willing to put up with seriously outweigh the things I am. I hate that I got this way. I really hope that I can find a new sense of normalcy. Maybe I won't feel so negative about it all. I know one thing is certain - I'm SO sick of helping people fix themselves. I'm not broken. I'm not asking for anyone to fix me . I just want to think that what I could want in a partner someday isn't too much to ask for.