It's so funny how the years in a relationship can just drain the life out of you. But once upon a time you thought this person was "the one". You were talking about love like you knew something about it.
After seven years we're calling it quits. Seven years seems SO long, and I'm pretty sure it IS long. I feel like it was just yesterday that we met, yet I can't remember how it felt when I was head-over-heels for him. I can't even imagine why we've held on so long. It's all made me so jaded about relationships in general. And I doubt I'll ever want to be married. I feel like I've given so much of myself that there's nothing left.
I don't see myself ever wanting to date even. I feel like every potential person to date would suck. I've changed so much, and I know what I don't want, and what I'm willing and not willing to put up with. And, I've gotta tell ya, the things I'm not willing to put up with seriously outweigh the things I am. I hate that I got this way. I really hope that I can find a new sense of normalcy. Maybe I won't feel so negative about it all. I know one thing is certain - I'm SO sick of helping people fix themselves. I'm not broken. I'm not asking for anyone to fix me . I just want to think that what I could want in a partner someday isn't too much to ask for.